Being a Mother

Wow, there is surely nothing that can prepare you for all of this. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't trade it for anything, just a bit overwhelming. I'm really trying to get Parker on a schedule, and it's slowly getting better and better everyday, but you truely have no clue what each day will be like. When it's just the two of you it's easy to just pick up and go do whatever whenever, now your life revolves around the needs of this child. Good thing they're so cute. Even with the acid reflux and the rough nights sleeping Parker still is a generally happy baby and freely gives lot's of smiles which makes it all worth it. He's very playful, and has lots of energy and therefor wears out quickly. He has an extra hard time going to sleep because he really wants to take it all in. I'm going to look for drapes today to cover his windows for night time and naps other wise he is mesmerized by the blinds and the light coming through them which at this time of the year is all the time. I've been reading this book called The Secrets of the Baby Whisper. It's been one of my favorites so far. I'm kind of a nerd, but I like reading self help books, or educational. I like to know as much as possible when I'm doing something important such as parenting. But with all my reading, I've learned that you really have to just trust your instincts and not take everyone else's word as doctrine you have to find what works for you; but it sure helps having some ideas, which is why I continue to read three books at the same time:) I'm really dreading having to go back to work to give my two weeks in June. You wouldn't think that's much considering a lot of women go back full time for good, but I just don't know how they do it. I'm suppose to go on call afterwards and I'm really even wondering how much I'll do that. The extra money would be nice, especially with all my husbands wants and desires(right now it's a camping trailor and a new couch). But I'm glad he's even realized how hard it would be to have me going back to work, I think he's really realized how much it takes to take care of a baby and he's even dreading me going back to work. He really stressed about having enough money without me working, but we've been able to save a lot since we don't have to pay for school anymore. Plus Frank get's another raise in July so I really think we'll be ok. Not wealthy by any means, but hopefully now that he's done with school he'll find another job as the market get's better. Seeing how the economy can really flip your life upside for a lot of people I think has kind of turned him off of the construction thing, but maybe facilities mangement with all his experience there would be a little more stable. Anyways, I'm just rambling now, I haven't been able to get how much can you tell???